Here Comes the Sun...It's Alright

My wilder side

My back porch swingin' side

I was just reading a friend's blog about her Christmas adventures and it was if she was right beside me and I could hear her talking. I got so reminiscent about her and old friends and highschool and our pasts. See I get this way because tomorrow I turn the big 3-0. This whole year I have been preparing myself for 30. Saying over and over that it was no big deal, just another birthday, another day. And really I am not worried or sad or angry about turning 30. I am not stressed. I am simply 30. I look back on my life and I wish I could say I have no regrets but of course, I do. But I have prayed about them, I have been forgiven and they have been forgotten. How wonderful is that? I also look back and more than anything I find peace. I find love from family and friends. I find such hilarious memories that I still laugh thinking about them. I find friendships that have lasted 30 years! I find a wonderful relationship with my parents and family. I find a lifetime of happiness. I find the love of my life and the joy of a loving marriage and motherhood that he brought to me. I find that I am okay with 30, with where I am in life and the anticipation of my next 30 years.

December Already??

This year has flown by with everything that a new baby brings. All the firsts, like our first run to the hospital to hunt down the pediatrician (so lucky I work there), the first sit up alone, the first crawl, the first foods, the first stand up, first words, first bow in the hair and here we are now celebrating another huge first and the end of a first year. One year ago, this past wednesday. December 17, this family was blessed with a beautiful and healthy baby girl. Max Milligan has blessed our life in every way possible. I could never have believed that my life could change so much and in such a wonderful and loving way. Max Milligan cracks me up every day with her hugs and "aww" to her wide mouth kisses. How she flirts with the boys already and how she is incredibly nosy in restaurants. Her seriously serious face when she is trying to figure someone out and her silly laugh when her daddy makes her laugh. Simply amazing.
We had Max Milligan's birthday party on Saturday. There were tons of friends and family and a good time was had by all. I will post pictures later.
Also wanted to say how crazy it felt Sunday night at Church for the men's Christmas program. They put this program on every year and it is my most favorite thing and what I look forward to all year long. Last year it was on the 16th. Do you see where I am going with this?? Last year, one whole year ago, I was one day shy of my due date. I refused to miss the Christmas program and was there, huge belly and all. I even wore heeled boots. :) On the hour drive back to Albany, I began to feel "uncomfortable" and later that night we went to the hospital and had Max Milligan the next day. This year, watching the program and holding Max Milligan felt so surreal. I kept thinking, "I was here one year ago and you weren't" How wierd.