Sunday, June 1, 2008

First Family Beach Trip

Daniel, Max Milligan and I had an exciting weekend. We took our first beach trip, we stopped nursing, we drank juice out of a sippy cup and we rolled over and slept all night on our side! Well technically "we" only took the beach trip. Max Milligan did the rest. I am feeling so many emotions right now. Looking back, I had a really hard time with the whole nursing thing. Trouble latching, it hurt, she ate ALL THE TIME and I just felt overwhelmed and kind of like a failure. Mama kept telling me, "just give it two weeks." Well, I gave it two weeks and at that mark I had a break down and almost threw in the towel and gave Max Milligan a bottle. But mama, being who she is and the best mom ever, came to our rescue immediately. She pulled me out from under the covers and sat with me for two days every time Max Milligan needed to nurse. She coaxed me through and I made it. Several times throughout this nursing experience I have almost given out and up, but again I was encouraged and found a way to increase my supply (sorry guys who read this). Then I got sick and it pretty much wiped me out. So over the last few weeks I have been nursing less and less until this weekend Max Milligan just said that's it and we had to go full on bottle. I didn't cry, surprising enough. But I did find that even that little encouragement of "she's ready, Katie" from mama was what I needed to get through this and be okay with it.
Well I was going to write about the beach trip but I guess something a little deeper came out of this. I can not believe how big she is getting. Again she is a blessing to us every day.

1 comment:

The Webb's said...

I feel your pain! I am about 2 weeks into this whole nursing thing - can you believe they call it a "natural" experience??? It is so difficult, so it's nice to hear I'm not alone. Glad to hear you were able to be confident enough in yourself to know when to say when.

Your little peanut is really getting big and she is just so adorable. Keep the updates coming!

xoxo
anna